Pride; I thought it could be a good thing? Well not when you love yourself more than others. You may think...ha, I don't love myself very much but look how you care for yourself, feed yourself, get mad when you don't get your sleep..or at least I do. Yes, I know learning to truly love others the way God wants me to will be a life long process but just admitting I needed to work on this was a big step for me. Learning about this dog, God is showing me a whole other level of love that I didn't want to face. Learning to love others on their terms, learning to honor others who are different from me..not just say I love them but show I love them and accept them. Learn to love others the way they need in order to feel loved.
You might be thinking it is just a dog kelli. Yep, that is what I would be saying, or I might be saying their just a kid, what do they know. Or they are old what do they know or look at their life what do they know. God is not asking me what I think, he is telling me to stop thinking and start loving...loving in a way I don't know. Loving in a way he has yet to show me or a way I couldn't see before. You have no Idea how humbling it is going to be for me to learn these lessons through a dog , it is like a cruel joke from God! Which I am sure was all a part of his "little"plan. You animal lovers have no idea how us non animal lovers really feel about animals(or people who need them)
thank you Joy! I agree, I never, never thought I would be owning a pet. But almost 40 years later here I am :) so I hope I do it well or at least laugh along the way and maybe just maybe learn something new :)
ReplyDeleteMichele said; I just read it...can i say I'm "proud" of you for sharing? sure made me think....:) When your puppy gets a little bigger, we'll have to have puppy playdates
ReplyDeleteLisa said; I love this and how your share your heart!!
ReplyDeleteLeslie said; Good morning Kell-
ReplyDeleteI have been praying for you this morning...for an open heart and patience. ;-)
Remember when our kids were babies? How tough it was when they didn't communicate, and made horrible, stinky messes and drove us to tears because of frustration and exhaustion??? The whole puppy thing is MUCH easier than that! You've done exactly what you needed to do...you've educated yourself! I've tried to think how hard this would be for a non-dog-lover. You're showing some great courage in agreeing to be a forever home to a pup!!!
Crate that baby as soon as you can. She'll scream (maybe) but she'll love it later. I love you for taking this on!! You're awesome. Maybe you'll become a dog junkie like me??? HAAAA! I have an illness I know, but truly dogs are better than people! ;-)
Have a peaceful, happy day.
Les~
No, I don't understand all you are going through, however, I do understand what you are writing about...trust. You've got your complete trust in God to help you love the doG and you are a better woman for that.
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