Sunday, December 19, 2010
Why now?
why this now?; Good question, I have no great answer except that my children (especially my oldest, who is now 15)have wanted a dog for a very long time. I told them we couldn't have one because I am allergic to dogs(as well as my sister, brother and dad). Well my sister was the first to ruin the excuse by getting dog. Then my brother shortly followed by also getting a dog. I then told my oldest if she got all A's we would get a dog(hoping that would not realistically happen!) My oldest child started high this last year..it was rough but I feel she worked really hard while also being on two different sport teams. She ,on the other hand, feels as though she is never good enough, which probably comes from me telling her where she can do better! I have good intentions in my heart but this is not what is being felt or heard by the receiver. When Christmas started to roll around and my daughter couldn't think of anything she really wanted, a dog popped into my head. Would a dog help our relationship..I thought to myself. I would do anything to see my daughter happy and to show her how much I truly love her! I began to consider this idea.
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Kelli, that was a good decision. Obviously one from a loving mom.
ReplyDeleteRegina says;
ReplyDeleteHey Kelli,
I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I too am not a dog person. However, Chris owned a great dane puppy when we met. :( I did not realize what a BIG dog meant. He was ALWAYS in my space because he was so tall. Chris told me once when we were dating that if I made him choose between the dog and me he would choose the dog. He had a very deep bond with Maxum. Maxum was the first dog he ever owned without his parents and he bought him at a time where he was in a very depressed place.
Anyway, I loved Chris so I decided I could deal with it.
I didn't deal very well....for four years we fought about the dog and we even almost separated in the very beginning. But, like you, God was using Maxum to teach me some very big lessons on love and faithfulness to God. I remember breaking down in church one day when God spoke to me and said, "you need to love Maxum and you don't need to know why....just know that I said so."
The other thing is about your daughter/kids. I also feel like I have been so hard on Ainsley and haven't loved her where she is. I love her of course but she has difficulty believing me... :( That makes me so sad, I feel i have so much to make up for. Because of me, she doesn't have the confidence in her abilities. I too am working on that....
Just wanted to share...I COMPLETELY know how you feel about the dog situation...
Good luck, I hope you fall in love with Zoe.
Regina .